In my own healing process one of the most difficult things I had to do was to turn around and face the dragon, or rather face the pain. When we continue to run it continues to chase after us until it finally catches up with us. This is what many of you who are reading this are dealing with.
I went through a very dark night of the soul last Winter and wrote the song “Descending Deeper” to capture my experience of going into the pain. I felt inspired to record this song, live, Sunday evening and ironically it seemed to fit well with this weeks topic “running from pain.” Descending Deeper is the opposite experience from “running.” We find ourselves in this place when there is no place left to run and the only thing we can do is go deeper into what we have been attempting to run from. You can listen to this song by clicking on the player below.
Descending Deeper
by Kaleah
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Void
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Abyss
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Silence
I Surrender; I surrender all of this
In the foyers of my mind
I run away, run away, run
From all the pain left there inside
I run away, run away, run
I can’t hold on. I can’t let go
And I don’t know who I am
I can’t go back. I can’t go forward
And I can’t stand still
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Void
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Abyss
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Silence
I Surrender; I surrender all of this
Like the Lion
Chasing after its prey
I can’t run fast enough
To get out of harm’s way
And if I fall upon the earth
And shed my blood
And I’m rebirthed
Maybe I’ll know who I am
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Void
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Abyss
Descending Deeper
Deeper into the Silence
I Surrender; I surrender all of this
I thank you so much, ….God sent me to you…..I so wish to be where you are today! happy sailing!
Wonderful song, Kaleah! Thank You so much. My tears flowed as I associated my own journey to the words. There is a process..somewhat like steps, going down..and how very daunting the climb back up. I have just begun to climb up..with residue of being at the bottom for so long and avoiding my health…an issue arose. I WILL Conquer. Grateful is hardly enough, to share how much you have helped. AND definitely “Surrender” is the key!
I’ve had many nights like this each descent deeper requiring deeper surrender and resolve to live free. I see this as recovery and the journey much like the peeling of an onion.each time I feel more authentic. I am less afraid less willing to run or hide